Parenting Through Weakness

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Dear Juli,

I’m the mom of two teenage girls. I know I need to talk to them about sex but honestly, I don’t know where to begin. My sex life is a mess. My husband and I have relied on porn in our marriage for years. I have abuse in my past that I’ve never dealt with. I feel so messed up in my own life … how can I possibly help my daughters?

One of the greatest barriers to honest conversations about sex with our kids (especially teens and young adults) is our own sexual brokenness. In one sense, this is a good thing. The pastor or parent who forges ahead with “thou shalt not” while harboring sexual sin is nothing short of a hypocrite. We know from volumes of research that the quickest way to lose your teen is such hypocrisy. Teens and young adults are far more impressed by authenticity than perfection.

While we may feel appropriately hesitant to set boundaries that we ourselves are not following, the answer is not to stay silent while our children wade through the cesspool of pornography, sexting, and sexual experimentation. As a parent, you may be determined to save your children from the pain and bondage you have experienced. But how do you throw a life preserver when you are drowning in the same waters?


Become a desperate parent.

Jesus interacted with parents, like the religious ruler named Jarius, who came to the Lord not for their own salvation, but for the sake of their children. Many parents who lack the faith to pursue God for their own healing will do so because they love their children. In fact, Christians who have fallen away from church and God often return because they want their children to know the spiritual life they themselves once rejected.

A Barna study indicated that seventeen percent of parents reconnected with church and twenty percent of parents got more involved after having children. 

Perhaps God has been knocking on your door, inviting you to sexual healing and confession, but you’ve been unwilling to open that door for your own sake. Would you be willing to believe for the sake of your children?

The enemy would love to keep your family stuck in the bondage of shame, immobilized to pursue the truth and love of Jesus. He’s had his way in your home for too long. God desires to bring healing into your life, your marriage, and your family for your children’s sake, but also for yours. Remember that you are His child.


Be honest without sharing detail.

I have spoken to many different audiences over years of ministry. Nothing makes me more uneasy than speaking to teenagers. They don’t pretend to care or to be listening. If you can’t capture them in the first few minutes, they are happy to be entertained by their smartphones and friends while you stammer on with advice and wisdom. I once asked a youth pastor, “What’s the secret to speaking to teens?” His reply was simple. “Teens sniff out hypocrisy within 30 seconds. You have to be yourself. They want to see that they can relate to you. If you try to impress them, you’ll lose them.”

While your sexual brokenness and failures may seem to disqualify you from sexually discipling your teen, the opposite is probably true. Your son or daughter is struggling with sexual questions and temptations. He or she doesn’t need an expert to explain how to perfectly navigate these landmines, but rather what to do when one blows up in your face.  

Perhaps the greatest credibility comes from honestly sharing what God is teaching you. I would advise against sharing details (your grandfather abused me, I cheated on your mom, I just looked at porn last night) because they will burden your child. But you can authentically share something like, “Sexual struggles have plagued me since I was your age. I’m only now beginning to understand what it means for God to bring healing and freedom. I want to save you from so many years of pain that I have had to walk through.”

Authentically sharing with your teen presents you as a safe person to ask questions and share struggles. Not every teen will feel comfortable talking about sexual temptations and thoughts with their parents, but it is critical to keep that invitation open. 


Remember that you are not the Savior.

Discipleship can be summed up with this statement, “Follow me as I follow Jesus.” Many of us think of parenting more like, “Follow me as I try to act like Jesus.” There is a subtle but critical difference between those two sentiments.

The power in my child’s life is not how perfectly I try to emulate my Savior, but how consistently I pursue Him. Do they see my weakness leading me to His strength? Do they see my failures pointing to His perfection?

I’m at the stage of parenting in which my sons are leaving home. They are forging their own identity, belief system, and life choices. I don’t want them to be like me. I long for them to be like Jesus. I can’t fix their problems or answer all of their questions or heal their wounds, but I know the One who can.

Paul famously wrote about a “thorn in the flesh,” a messenger from Satan that kept him humble. When he repeatedly asked for God to take it away, the reply was, “My grace is enough for you. My power will be made perfect through your weakness.”

Your children can’t learn from a “perfect” parent. They need to see God’s strength, not yours. Although the accuser may remind you of your failures to discourage you, remember that “boasting in our weakness” points our children to the only One who can save and redeem them.


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  • Paul Wilcox

    Paul Wilcox

    Thanks for a great post Juli. I come from a sexually abused background and this impacted me greatly in my ability to communicate as well as relate wholly in a sexual way. The Lord used my wife in such a beautiful, powerful and sensitive way. I was determined that my abuse would not become my disability but rather my story of victory. I was very open and honest with my birth children about my sexual abuse and the struggles I had sexually, as a result. This, I realise (though it was not my original intent), provided a safe environment for my kids to openly share their own struggles. Many times, when praying with my kids (3 boys & 1 girl) I would ask them what they would like me to pray for. My boys (I honestly doubt my daughter had these struggles!) would regularly share with me their struggle with lust, pornography and masturbation. This gave me an opportunity to share with them, encourage them and affirm them. These struggles did not have to define them. They have always been open and honest with me and I put it down to the foundation I had laid when they were younger about my own journey with all it struggles. My 3 married kids all involved their mum and dad in their relationships with the opposite sex and wanted us to journey with them right through till marriage. Now, in sharing this I in no way want to give the impression that we were perfect parents, that I was a perfect dad. I/we was/were far from that! But, every time I stumbled, lost my cool, struggled in some way that impacted my family I would always ask them for forgiveness. I think what we did achieve was to establish a family life which felt safe and where there was nothing off limits when it came to discussions and questions. Now, our foster kids are a totally different issue all together. Even though we sought to parent in the same way we began to realise, the hard way, that these kids suffered from feelings of abandonment. Only now, as they are entering their mid to late teens do we feel like we are having any measure of success in our parenting of them. I do think our kids need to see and witness our weaknesses but I've come realise that every kids will respond differently. Trying to understand how our kids are all unique and respond differently is important. You are so right Juli when you say: "Perhaps the greatest credibility comes from honestly sharing what God is teaching you." I was more honest than you recommended but my children seemed to respond very positively to this. I did name my sins for what they were and my children embraced this and did likewise with me. I didn't go into details of "how" but simply that I was and the sexual struggles that occurred as a result - lust, pornography and the such.

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