This morning, I met with a group of friends to encourage each other in our marriages. As we talked, one of the women described her discouragement when her husband failed to text her during the day about something that was important to her.
“He knew my sister was going into surgery. I just told him a few days ago that I was really worried about it. It hurts me that he didn’t think to text me or even ask me how it went.”
One of the greatest needs we have as wives is to know that we are genuinely loved. Thoughtfulness like what my friend desired is a basic way that a woman is reminded that her guy is thinking about her and cares about her.
These “pop quizzes” are never verbalized but contribute to or erode our sense of connectedness and intimacy in marriage. What we are really asking through these trial balloons is, “Do you still love me? Can I trust you with my heart?”.
While the underlying meaning of the test is critical to an intimate marriage, the method of assessing your husband’s love might be flawed. In fact, you might actually be picking a fight.
Think back to a class you took in high school or college. You learned the material and even studied for the test, but the true/false or multiple choice questions on the exam were flat out confusing. Your grade was a very poor reflection of what you actually learned.
That might be how your husband feels—like your relationship is becoming a landmine of hidden challenges to prove his love. Let’s face it. Life is busy. Even devoted husbands can be forgetful and self-absorbed.
Here are four things to remember when you are tempted to test your husband’s love.
There are seasons of marriage when your husband’s love and commitment genuinely may be in question. Perhaps you are recovering from an affair or you are battling insecurity from past wounds. Maybe your relationship has seemed distant. Instead of setting up a series of unspoken tests, address your underlying fear directly.
Your husband may have no idea that you feel unattractive and need his reassurance. He may be totally unaware that you feel neglected when he games with friends for hours on the weekend. Usually, our “tests” of love stem from fears and insecurities that need to be brought into the light.
One time, Mike and I were in the middle of a tense phone conversation. I was out of town, and we hadn’t seen each other in a few days. I shared with Mike something I was concerned about and he went mute. During those fifteen seconds of silence, I got angry and hurt. I began telling Mike how much his lack of response hurt me when I noticed that the call had dropped. My husband wasn’t stonewalling me; he hadn’t heard me.
As we processed this situation later, Mike reminded me, “Whenever something like that happens, your mind is going to jump to the worst possible scenario. Instead, let’s give each other the benefit of the doubt.” That’s a principle that we’ve stayed committed to ever since. Daily life affords regular opportunities for missteps that we will interpret as either neutral mistakes or mean-spirited rejections. Make the choice to assume the best.
Nothing says “I love you” like your husband reading your mind—intuitively knowing exactly what you want when you want it. Wouldn’t that be nice! Despite what romance novels portray, real marriage doesn’t involve psychic “soul-mate” powers. Your husband won’t know your love language unless you teach him, sometimes repeatedly.
If I need encouragement through a difficult day, instead of expecting Mike to intuitively know that, I’ll ask him, “Can we check in around lunch today? I just want to hear your voice and pray with you.” (And his concern doesn’t count less because I prompted him!)
Human nature naturally searches for what’s wrong in marriage. You can easily come up with a list of things you wish your husband would do better. In this “marriage improvement” mindset, you probably tend to look right past the many ways your husband loves you well. I know I fall into this pattern.
Another thing we know about human nature is that we are more apt to respond to encouragement than criticism. Instead of nailing your husband for what he forgot, try thanking him for what he remembered.
Marriage is a marathon, not a sprint. At any given moment, there are many ways your husband will “fail” tests of love. In reality, you fail him in similar ways through busyness, forgetfulness, and missing the cues for how to encourage him. These failures don’t mean you have “fallen out of love.” They are just part of the ebb and flow of being husband and wife. So instead of getting stuck in frustration, try to look at the big picture and ask the more important question, “How do we take one more step toward true intimacy?”.
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