Juli Slattery

by Juli Slattery


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Where Do You Run When Marriage Gets Lonely?

It’s one thing to be lonely when you are single, wondering if and when God will ever bring the right guy. It’s another matter for your heart to ache with loneliness when the “right guy” is living in your home and sleeping in your bed. If this is your reality, please know that you are not alone. Behind the façade of busyness and “family life,” many married women are desperately lonely.

Marriage books are filled with advice on how to bridge the chasm between you and your husband. Working to resolve conflicts, finding common interests, and learning to “date” your husband are all practical suggestions that can make a difference in your marriage. However, there are some marriages in which no strategies appear to make a difference.  At least for a season, you and your spouse seem to be destined to sharing space, living as distant roommates.

Loneliness is perhaps the deepest ache our souls can experience. The grief of losing a loved one, the fear of abandonment, the sting of rejected love all tap into a bedrock fear, “I am all alone.” Feeling lonely in marriage exposes subtle lies we’ve believed. Lies like:

If you can just find “Prince Charming” you’ll never have to be alone.

Obey God and He will give you a fulfilling marriage.

As long as you’re married, you’ll never have to feel the rejection you felt growing up.

There must be something wrong with me that drives people away.

If you are in this place of loneliness, you likely face a fork in the road. Before you is a choice of what you will do with your sadness, disillusionment and fear. Will you run away from God or run to Him?

Running away from God

Priscilla first married when she was 17 to escape from a troubled family life. That marriage soon ended in the throes of alcohol abuse, conflict about money and short tempers. Ten years later, Priscilla married Mark. Unlike her first husband, Mark was a good provider and stable leader. On the surface, Priscilla and Mark seemed like a wonderful Christian couple. They had two daughters, attended church together and opened their home often to entertain friends. But they had little communication and few shared interests. Priscilla often lay in bed, listening to her husband’s deep breathing, wondering how she could be inches away from someone who was so distant.

After years of trying to speak his “love language” and convince him to try counseling, Priscilla gave up. She simply accepted that the friendship and love in her marriage were dead.  She was angry with God and felt trapped in a dead-end marriage.

Priscilla vowed never again to divorce, especially considering her daughters. However, she let her mind and heart drift into “what ifs…” “What if I had married someone different?” “What if Mark divorced ME so I didn’t have to divorce him?” “What if I could be with…?” She gave herself permission to flirt with guys at work. She indulged in erotic romance novels as a way to channel her sexual longings. She shut her husband out of her heart, deciding not to feel the suffocating loneliness.

Many Christian women choose a similar path in their loneliness. While not overtly rejecting God, they give up the virtues of faithfulness, unconditional love, and longsuffering in marriage. (Exactly how long do I have to suffer?) From a worldly perspective, they are justified in doing so. Their friends will agree that they “deserve better.” But ultimately, their decisions testify, “I tried God’s way and it didn’t work. I’ll make the decisions I think are right for my life.”

Running to God

The cliché Christian answer to loneliness is to trust God to meet all of your needs. We say it, but do we really believe that God can minister to us in loneliness? Jesus is called our “Bridegroom” but He has no physical arms to hold you when you are sad. He can’t take you “on a date” or make you laugh. Is it truly possible to find deep companionship and intimacy with the Creator and Savior of the Universe?

I once heard Dr. Larry Crabb say something that stuck with me. “I know that God is all I need, but I don’t yet know Him well enough for Him to be all I have.” This might be your reality. At church you sing, “God is more than enough for all I need!” but your reality speaks a different story.

Only within the past few years have I ventured into a deep enough relationship with God to understand that He is able to meet my most profound emotional needs. Although I’ve been a Christian most of my life, the concept of intimacy with God never really made sense. God was a distant Father that I desperately wanted to please. He was the Awesome, omnipotent One! But my best friend? My comforter?

No matter the degree of your loneliness, God does see and care. He will draw near to you if you draw near to Him. Here are some suggestions of how to do exactly that….

  1. Learn to love God with your heart. Jesus said that the greatest commandment is to love God with all of your heart, all of your soul, all of your mind and all of your strength. What does it mean to love Him with your heart? With your affections? For me, it means worship. I get on my knees in the morning, put on praise music and let my heart draw near to God. Sometimes it means pouring out my heart to the Lord with tears or joy. It’s not enough to study the Bible or go to church. Intimacy requires that the heart nurture love.
  2. Be faithful, no matter the cost. The bottom line is this: Sin causes us to be distant from God. Trusting in Jesus’ sacrifice on the cross for forgiveness puts us in the right standing with God. However, our sinful and stubborn choices as a Christian still interrupt fellowship and intimacy. Proverbs 3:32 says, “For the devious are an abomination to the Lord, but He is intimate with the upright.” Your choices to be faithful and obedient pave the way for the Lord to be near to you. As with any intimate relationship, keep short accounts. Confess your sin to the Lord and ask Him to draw near to you.
  3. Find comfort in the body of Christ. The loneliness in your marriage doesn’t mean that you have to be lonely. There are times when the presence of God ministers to your heart, but there are other times when God shows you His love through His people. The concept of having your deepest friendship needs met in marriage is more American than biblical. Godly men and women found companionship in relationships apart from marriage. Think about David and Jonathan, Ruth and Naomi, Paul and Timothy, Eli and Samuel. Friendship among Christian women is a dying art. Ask the Lord to bring a spiritual mother, sister or daughter with whom to share your heart.

What I’m suggesting for your loneliness may sound like a bitter pill. It’s far easier to run to fantasy, become numb through busyness or stay justified in bitterness. It requires great faith to run to a God you can’t see and trust His promise that, “I will never leave you or forsake you.” But “without faith, it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him.”

Have you ever considered the idea that it may be God’s will for you to be lonely right now? When you are satisfied with human company, you are rarely hungry for divine fellowship. If you are a child of God, loneliness is NOT your destination! God may be allowing it in this season of your marriage as a way of testing and refining your faith.  He is asking you a very personal question, “Will you run from me or to me?”

 

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  • Christine Young

    Christine Young

    How true! What we think we are promised, or entitled, to & what we are actually promised, or entitled, to are 2 completely different things. To know God & to love His is what we need to keep first & foremost in our lives.
  • Andrew Brassyhub

    Andrew Brassyhub

    Yes... Thank you. Good things to meditate on. I do trust in His love. But for me, 'this season' is not going to end. I have to learn to live without hope for any change, at least in this world. So the loneliness in my marriage is for life.

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